I understand where you're coming from, and recognize everyone must take their own unique path.

For myself, this being what I needed to do, it took me many years, countless insomniac nights spent in deep thought, and thousands of hours spent walking meditatively outdoors still (mostly over the course of the past eleven years, beginning when I was *18), often through blizzards, rain storms, and hot blustery days, to get to a point where I could exercise this way of thinking, applying it to situations both physical and emotional, and still, I'm often weak.

When I wrote this, I'd just recently revolutionized my ability to take physical pain, mostly through extreme temperatures, or pushing myself at work, injured or not (in kitchens at the time), but I was barely guiding myself still to escape my mental and emotional problems.

Most of my earliest writings were consciously intended for myself at the time, with the hope others may also benefit, but also with the understanding that I myself was still figuring things out.

What I really like most about this piece is the '- Gustave' signed at the bottom. 😂

Fun fact: I pronounce the current 'G' in French.

I'm glad you read this and responded authentically. Plus, you might be the first person ever to read it... after the Medium staff member who I always suspected shadow banned me for it... with good reason, considering how often I don't realize I'm making things up.

Too much confidence in the facts sometimes means I don't catch myself making things up too!!

Hence all the discretization pieces I purposefully published as well, in this time period most of all...

Damn, writing this response brought me back.

I have to stop developing, so you can return to your life. 😛💖

Thank you preciously for your time and feedback, and I look forward to reading you very soon now. Take care at this time.

Sincerely,

G