Self improvement
Sex and Violence, You A** Wiped Pieces of S**t
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“If somebody says ‘I love you’ to me, I feel as though I had a pistol pointed at my head. What can anybody reply under such conditions but that which the pistol holder requires? ‘I love you, too’.”
― Kurt Vonnegut, ‘Wampeters, Foma and Granfalloons’
Did I ever wonder why no one’s reading me anymore?
Holy!
I didn’t mean to call anyone names.
But I did, and now there must be a period of deep reflection. A** wiped pieces of s**t?? That doesn’t even make sense!!!!
Anyway, I used to have a fantastic read rate—
Most of these were from earlier last year, a time when my low view count still provided the positive feedback of a high read ratio.
But today—
Let’s look deeper
Basically, I stopped caring about what readers want.
What used to be stories perfectly crafted to offer at least some form of value or another, became self-indulgent pieces of poop.
That’s all there is to it.
I started treating my readers like they don’t matter, sometimes telling them outright how little I care about them. Even if I balanced these declarations with clear beneficial information from which to learn, the main takeaway was generally pretty useless.
But is the problem really with me here?
Or could it have more to do with the Medium crowd? After all, I never did well with the “normies”.
And there I go.
Cocks!
Not you.
“What is wrong, not with the world but me?”
I’m not being fair. To imply you must be different to enjoy my material, while even some very strange people wouldn’t touch my writing with someone else’s eyes.
It’s about the first thing
My material was always a little on the weird side, and it used to do okay. It also used to base itself on my beliefs, or at least had a comedic angle readers could enjoy.
Some of these pieces were also less than a minute long; let’s ignore them for the purpose of this article.
But I understand what’s going on.
Having gotten into this new stage of openness, I’m way overcompensating. It’s often what I do when readjusting my personality in any way. In the beginning, I’m just ridiculous, and things don’t always work out. Soon, I’ll have balanced out, and my writing will once more follow through with the readers in mind.
Addendum — August 15th, 2022:Wow, this has been a long phase!!UPDATE -- June 2nd, 2024😅😅
It’s also this—
I’ve taken up publishing really quicky. I mean, wake up, write, post, early, always. Sentences like the former shouldn’t even exist, and yet, here we are. I get in after work, write, post, early, always.
You get my drift.
In all seriousness, I shouldn’t even be caring enough to write this story.
I’m not complaining, or confused.
I know exactly what’s going on, and I’m fine with it. Maybe I just wanted to see whether this story would do better based on the title and opening question.
Know I’ll be more than appreciative for some feedback, eh? But it’s true, I’m not giving my latest pieces any love.
I mean, my love often goes into everything I do, but sometimes, once that initial love has been given—
That’s all there is.
I just lose interest and want to get a piece over with. I’m convinced a reader can feel that.
And another thing
I don’t know if this has an effect, but the paragraphing. I’ve recently developed an alternating 1–3 lines per paragraph style, and I don’t know how it’s being received.
Like this.
My very first piece was all long paragraphs, and I eventually tried some single-liners, but this feels the most natural for me.
Shorter paragraphs are known to read best on mobile, and longer paragraphs are more respectable, but the in-between just feels right. The main issue being that I get self-conscious about paragraph lengths repeating too closely. Next thing I know, I’m adding text for the sake of balancing the appearance, and it’s most likely that no one else is noticing it anyway.
UPDATE -- June 2nd, 2024
Classic.I do enjoy a nice 5–7 line paragraph here and there to thicken up the mix.
You see what I’m doing.
The misdirection
I must apologize for the trick employed to get you in here.
Or, was it a trick?
The subtitle was pretty clear about what this was going to be: a story on my struggles getting reads from my views. Right?
Starting a section with a three-liner always looks wrong to me. Whatever, the length appearance changes in read mode anyway, not to mention the extreme difference on mobile.
Extreme.
Do you like that?
I’m overthinking things.
Three single-liners in a row.
Plus two, make five.
I’m sorry, for it’s now become a lie
In all cases, it strikes me this isn’t how I want to go out. There are important events going on all over the world, from simple social injustice and hate, to full-on war… I’m sure it’s not all so drab.
Apparently negativity based works do better here anyway.
Big surprise, most people are drawn in by chaos. There’s a reason a black hole works the way it does…
Subconsciousness, the lack of willful direction, can be quite evil.
The subtitle for this section is a lie because there were now six single-liners in a row.
Unprofessionalism
I’m adding this because I became self-aware for a moment about my lack of a professional looking signature for all of my pieces. This brought me thinking about how that’s the very least of my concerns in this regard.
I use wayyy too many italics.
